Hey mom, this one might be a hard one for you to swallow. I know for me it was. It may even apply to
fathers. Howbeit, let the Holy Spirit speak to you.

What Is My Purpose?

Since a young child, I always wanted to know what my purpose or calling was. Like most children I knew,
I said I wanted to be in the same career as my parents. For me that meant, a cop. Haha, that quickly
changed as I gotten older. And in my teenage years, it grieved me so much that I became depressed.
Well, this added to my depression greatly. I felt lost, broken, and without a purpose. Every time I would
bring a career path up to people it was shot down, saying I was not mentally ready or capable to do
that. Or I did not know enough. So picking a career path for college was dreadful for me. As far as my
Identity. I had no clue who I was, or why I was sent to the Earth. This Is very much an Identity In Christ issue. But at that time, I had no idea.

Fast forward, when I dedicated my life back to Christ as a 19 year old, everything changed. I got married
and had children. Also, a passion for young people came into my heart. With many dreams and visions
about God’s divine plan for my life of helping others in the future. And I have been serving Jesus, ever
since. Amen.

Surrendering

Although…in my heart, over the course or the years, was always the search for more. I remember in 2020, when was 21, the Lord asked me to let go of my husband and my children. Meaning to surrender the feeling that they are mine and not the Lord’s. I had made my husband, at the time, an idol in my life. Therefore, I surrendered them to Him. The following year, He asked me to do the same with my goals and job at the time. Just like before, I cried and wailed, but I did. Each time it was like a weight lifted off of my shoulders.

But with His divine will for my life, I would have faith and then, doubt. In the first year back to Christ, God
told me I was going to go to college debt free. So, I tried to make that happen on my own time and
completely missed it. I did not finish school yet and I have student loans. Lesson learned; wait for God to
move. Be still and wait. That’s part of my problem, I did not know how to be still and wait. I started many
things because I am talented in many areas, but never finished them. I struggled to walk in God’s
perfect will because of the lack of patience and doubt. And because of this CORE PROBLEM,
discontentment in my heart.

Unsatisfied And Looking For More

Remember…when I first came back to God, He revealed to me my identity, as a daughter of God, gave
me a husband and gifted us with children. However, because He also showed me parts of His perfect
plan for my future through dreams and visions, I became discontent with my marriage and
motherhood. As if they were not God’s perfect will for me. Now, with my family dynamic, I stay home with the children, while my husband tills the ground. Something within my flesh, always says, “I need to do more.” I need to do a 9 to 5, put the kids in daycare/school and become a successful young woman. Like “true purpose” is wrapped up in a career only. Again, because of my talents, many opportunities were always laid before me. For some reason, they would never sit right with me. And I would do them and stop/quit or say no. God would always bring me back to, you are doing my will by serving your husband and children. That was just not enough for me. Felt like I needed to do something else.

That they admonish the young women to love their husbands, to love their children, to be discreet, chaste, homemakers, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God may not be blasphemed.

Titus 2:4-5 (NKJV)

(Note: Every family dynamic is different. In this day and age, both parents need to work. Even if it’s a
work from home job. What God uses to supply for your family, all glory to Him. Follow His will and
direction for your family. I often look at single parents who work and wonder how they do it. They truly
are a strong individuals…As far as the world, the kingdom of darkness, there are pressures on every
side to get the parents out of the home, to infiltrate the children. There are unholy movements that
are present to confuse the roles of mothers and fathers and cause discontentment in their hearts.
More on this topIc, another time.)

Wholehearted Stewardship

Nonetheless, let me get to the point. In the beginning of last year, God asked me, “If all you do in this life, is tend to your marriage and children, are you okay?” My heart was opened in that moment. I began to weep and weep. I seen how discontent I was with His first ministries He gave me. I seen how I began to put my marriage and children on the back burner for my search for a purpose. Not realizing that I was already walking in God’s perfect will for my life. Therefore, once I repented and renewed my mind with that revelation. I started to wholeheartedly steward my call to my marriage and motherhood. Today, there are some days where I have to remind myself of the beauty of these callings and how they are an example to this generation. How nurturing my marriage and Kingdom Kidz, will impact the world. Standing with my husband and being his help meet, fulfills God’s vision for our divine walk, which is all worth it. Raising Kingdom Kidz as soldiers in the army of the Lord, Kingdom shakers, and ambassadors for Christ is all worth it. Advancing His Kingdom this way, is His will for me.

This does not take away from the dreams and visions I had or serving other people. If anything, my
marriage and motherhood is building my character to sustain those calls of the future, as well as
the service I do now. But as I wait until that happens, I will enjoy it and remain content with these
first ministries.

As for you, mama. You got some Kingdom work to do and it starts right there in your home. Do not be
impatient, doubtful, and discontent like me before. But have joy, peace, and rest knowing you are in
God’s perfect will as a wife and a mother. Plus, who knows? As you joyfully walk in that, God may bless
you abundantly and give you some work to do on the side. Seek His counsel, you will know.

May your home and the work of your hands be blessed and your heart be
free and content, in Jesus’ name Amen!